Life choices consist of small decisions that we make every single day that make such a huge difference in life. Would you believe that all of your choices have to lead you to the very present moment that you’re living now?

Life Choices

I’ve made a bunch of terrible choices in my life. Yes, I’ve admitted that I haven’t been perfect and in fact, I am a little disappointed in some of my choices. However, I have come to realize that all of those choices have led me up to this very moment.

During my twenties, I thought I was invincible. Partying was the way of life for me. Not knowing that eventually, my actions would take me further than I wanted to go. Honestly, keep me longer than I wanted to stay.

Making Reckless Choices

There were times, I would wake up the next morning not knowing what happened the night before. All I could remember was drinking too much and being under the influence. Slowly but shortly, I became addicted to alcohol. After every drinking occasion, I blacked out. I found myself becoming a functionally alcoholic. I never miss a day of work, even if I was hungover from the night before.

Alcohol was my addiction and having a drink was a good cover-up. It covered up my lack of confidence and the low self-esteem I had about myself. These were some of the issues I had suffered from as a child that carried on into my adult life.

I hated being sober. Being intoxicated almost 100% of the time was my new normal. It was far better than dealing with those unwanting feelings I had. I didn’t feel as though I was attractive. But with a drink, the story in my head was different. Abusing alcohol became a form of superpower to me in a weird superficial way.

Although my life was crashing slowly but shortly, I dove more and more down the rabbit hole. Alcohol was taking over my life. Eventually, I began to lose jobs. It became difficult to support my family. Depression began to kick in.

Desperate Choices

Many times I saw my life flash before my eyes. I began doing things and being places I could have never imagined. It felt as though black clouds were following me wherever I went. At times, I felt like I would never overcome this dark place that I was suffering from. Depression is such a dark place to be isolated in. Alcohol was my codependent. I silently cried out for help. Too afraid to verbally admit that I was suffering from my terrible addiction.

Unfortunately, my reckless drinking behavior would eventually lead me to rock bottom, jail.

Overcome Foolish Choices

It was during my incarceration that I began praying to God. I prayed for strength, wisdom, and transformation. Most importantly, I prayed for God to save me! I realized in jail that I needed saving from myself. No, not because of where I was placed physically but because I had finally realized that my poor choices lead me to that present place.

The Journey of Being Redeemed

At the weakest point in my life, in jail I found God. From that moment, I began learning God’s word and what he says about me.

God has truly done wonders in my life. He has restored my family and we move to Florida to start a new life. During my transition, there were times I missed my old life. However, I realized that I desperately needed to do this transformation for myself. I had to get away from my old environment to lose those negative habits. As a result, I have been sober for almost 5 years. I married the love of my life, and have been an amazing father. I started attending a beautiful church and began fellowshipping with the people of God.

A lot of people have prayed and poured into my life during this transition. One thing that I have learned, is when you are going through any struggle or obstacle you can’t do it alone. Surround yourself with people that can help you and encourage you to do better.

My Overall Takeaway

The bad choices that you have made do not define who you are. The strength to overcome and learn from the choices defines your character. Every day you make history. So live life with no regrets and take time to rejoice!